grief

Tonight I am grieving the loss of a tiny baby & a lovely woman. The dear, sweet baby - born at 29 weeks - died four months after her entry into the world. The dear, sweet woman lies in a hospital bed, disconnected from the machines that have kept her alive these past few days.

Tonight I grieve the loss of a life never lived & the loss of a life lived to the fullest.

And this time, unlike other moments of grief, I cannot find the joy in the world around me. I cannot see the light in these days of darkness.

broken

I am consumed this week by the images & reports from quake-ravaged Haiti. But my heart is also heavy with the knowledge that as the eyes of the world are on Hispanola, devastation takes place in other regions, too. Afghanistan, Palestine, Darfur... We dare not forget the needs of the rest of the world.

haiti

I'm weeping tonight for the nation of Haiti. For those who will die waiting for water. For those who grieve in the streets. For those who have lost everything. For those who will soon lose hope.


Give, if you can, to relief efforts: https://donate.mcc.org/project/haiti-earthquake

aimless

I'm so aimless tonight. Crashing through the house - from one room to another - never stopping long enough to finish (or even start) any of the million projects that are ahead of me to do. I can't focus on anything - the paper I have to finish in the next three hours, the dishes that need to be put away, the bills that must be paid. Instead I stumble to the kitchen, to the tv, to the computer, & back again.

Maybe I'm waiting for something. Inspiration. Motivation.

Maybe I should give up on my list for tonight & just go to bed.

happy new year

I hate making resolutions, so in 2010 I'm keeping it simple...

Do one good thing a day.

Yesterday I called a friend who is grieving. Today I turned on the heat at a friend's house who is coming home today & has been gone for two weeks. Tomorrow I'm cooking dinner for a couple who is swamped with responsibilities. It's about being better everyday than I was the day before.

Let's hope I can achieve it. Happy New Year.